Good things take time!

Posted: August 4, 2015 in Uncategorized

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And this Wednesday it’s time for another group posting of the Insecure Writer’s Support Group! Time to release our fears to the world – or offer encouragement to those who are feeling neurotic. If you’d like to join us, click on the tab above and sign up. We post the first Wednesday of every month. I encourage everyone to visit at least a dozen new blogs and leave a comment. Your words might be the encouragement someone needs.

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A lot of times, when I’ve prepared blog posts to join in with the IWSG, I’ve not felt particularly insecure, and have had to reach for things to say. However, that’s because I wasn’t a published author, I didn’t have manuscripts or stories circulating publishers, I wasn’t trying to land an agent. I was immured from those crushing realities that deal death blows to other writers competing for the public eye. I was happily plodding away in my spare time on the same manuscript I’ve been working on since 2005. In my own mind, the process could easily take another ten years.

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Then, my mother died, and something changed inside. I guess in a nutshell you could say I came face-to-face with my own mortality. I realized because my mother (who always seemed like an unstoppable battleship) had moved on into the hereafter, that what they say is true: life is short, and there’s no time to waste! I swiftly moved from complacent to desperate! I needed to cross the finish line with this book and by doing so, poke mortality in the eye with a big stick.

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I went ahead and hired an editor. The wonderful Carol J. Amato, of Stargazer Publishing proofread the manuscript and sent it back to me this week. Wow. In all the years of working on this story, I’ve never dared print it out because the flipping thing was too big. It used to be all of 100,000 words long. I had charged through it with a scythe and slashed over 30,000 words however, I still had never seen it in paper form. It was gorgeous! 

At first, I was overcome with joy. Tears. Laughter. Excitement.

The word ‘shrine’ comes from the Latin scrinium meaning ‘chest for books’. I was very tempted, I admit, to build a shrine to my story right there on my kitchen counter.

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Yet, reality demanded that I move on from giddy dreams of holding my own book in my hand, and get back to making it happen.

Today, I have a meeting with a local publisher called Book Print. We’re going to discuss designs for the cover and the prospect of a small print run.

Finally, I cast my gaze ahead and see the next hurdle I need to cross. Marketing. Promotion. Things I’ve blogged about and talked about a lot in the past. Only now, I actually have to come up with an action plan and slog it out with the rest of the millions of other authors out there trying to outsmart everyone else to get to the top of the bestselling lists.

What do I feel now? Fear. Utter, fallible, gullible, vulnerable fear. Have I slogged away for the last ten years for only friends and family to read my work? Will even those precious few literally read my book? Will they like it? Will anyone like it? The insecurities mount into a veritable Everest. Someone help! Rescue parties may be needed.

What about you? Have you made any changes and then felt afraid? Are you insecure about your artistic efforts? Do you need a rescue party too? If so, send your coordinates!

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Talk to you next time!

Yvette K. Carol

http://www.yvettecarol.com

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‘The only way to learn is to take risks, make mistakes. Go out, make a mistake. Have the guts to fail. Talk about it. And there’s nothing wrong with that.’ ~ Eunice Kennedy Shriver

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Comments
  1. karenmcfarland says:

    Great news Yvette! Congratulations! I know, that first one takes so long. I’ve been working on mine for almost five years. I rewrote it last year and am now in the editing stage. It’s a lot of work. I am so proud of you! Look at what you’ve accomplished. So take courage my friend. You did it! Yay! 🙂

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    • yvettecarol says:

      Thank you, Karen!
      That’s great news about your book too. I just re-read your post about ice-cream and the endless rounds of editing. I know exactly what you mean!
      I re-wrote this story too along the way. The structure wasn’t quite where it needed to be. Then I needed to do a major re-jig from the start of this year also, with another critique peep coming on board, because she felt there was an extraneous storyline that needed to go, and the point of view needed whittling down too. It amazed me that even at the last minute there were such big changes to make. Such are the stuff of the endless rounds, huh?
      I wish you all the best with your rounds and I look forward to hearing more about your journey! Good luck, and hang in there! 🙂

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  2. Catherine Johnson says:

    It sure is exciting, Yvette. You just never know until you do it how successful it will be. Atta girl!

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    • yvettecarol says:

      It is really terrific and sort of stunning. Nat’s been home sick this week and tonight, after running around the printers, writing this post, and going to Toastmasters, I feel my throat is tickly. I think it’s symptomatic of just so much stuff going on, and so many changes, which feel to me like they’re all happening at once. Talk about from whoa to go! However, it is a thrill.
      Thanks so much for stopping by, Catherine. Have a great day! 🙂

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  3. Yay! Such an exciting and daunting time for you, Yvette. It will all go well; you have so many caring friends cheering you on, and you are so very intrepid, especially compared to me. I am scared of my own shadow, so changed usually throw me.

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    • yvettecarol says:

      You’re a wonderful friend, Teresa! Thank you for your generosity. You are such a talented writer, and as a New Zealander, I find your self-effacing ways to be endearing. We’re not keen on ‘show-boating’ down in these parts.
      As for ‘change’, after going at snail pace all these years, I feel a bit like I’m riding a charging rhino at the moment. I’ve actually come down with flu for the second time this month! Which I believe is my body’s way of trying to slow things down a bit. 🙂

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  4. emaginette says:

    Congrats, I’m sure it will do well. 🙂

    Anna from Elements of Writing

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  5. Nick Wilford says:

    It is a big change when you make the transition to something that could be a tangible product. It will be an exciting time! And don’t worry, from experience, the next books don’t take quite as long. 🙂

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    • yvettecarol says:

      Hi, Nick! Thanks for stopping by 🙂 I’ll pop over to your place next!
      Thank you for those thoughts. I’m very heartened to hear the second book won’t take as long because that thought has already crossed my mind. 🙂

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  6. Juneta says:

    Congratulations, and yes doubt myself all the time, my greatest fear is I’ll never finish or maybe the truth is that I will finish, probably both. Guess I will do it anyway, lol, I hope sooner than later,
    Juneta @ Writer’s Gambit

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    • yvettecarol says:

      I know exactly what you mean, Juneta! It’s thrilling and hair-raising all at the same time to be this close to publication. There’s this fear, what comes next? Selling 100 copies to friends and family? You know. However, that’s one of the cool things about this biz, is that it’s courageous and daring and brave to put your work and soul out there for the world to see. I’ll pop by your place next. Cheers! 🙂

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  7. Carrie-Anne says:

    Congratulations and good luck! It takes years to bring some books into their finished product, but it’s all worth it in the long run. Nothing good ever comes of rushing any book into the world. It’s about the journey, not rushing to the finish line.

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    • yvettecarol says:

      Thanks, Carrie. Yes, I was just thinking about ‘the journey’ side of it too. I was reading a blog post today by our fellow IWSG member, Joylene Nowell Butler, http://cluculzwriter.blogspot.com/ and I started thinking about her message of slowing down and smelling the roses. She wrote: ‘it is vital that you be who you are, love being who you are, and not measure yourself by the labels put upon you by our industry.’

      I’ve been thinking about this because I recently made a decision to print a bunch of actual real live books. Go figure. And the reasons are exactly those, I want to spend some of my money and really enjoy this moment. This is my moment in the sun, after all of it…So this has inspired me to think of the next blog post. These are wonderful times to be alive and to be writers. I love this thriving author community!

      I’ll pop over to your place next. By the way, love the avatar! 🙂

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  8. We have so much in common, Yvette. I began writing when I lost my dad; I was 30. My mum passed a few months before my first book came out. My desk also sits at a large window overlooking our lake. As you know (from my post) I’m looking for a new publisher. Yes, I could self-publish and go it alone. It’s a long story, but I fancy hardcopies and going that route here in Canada is very expensive. It’s a choice I made and I’m going to follow through. I’m so excited for you and your soon-to-be-published novel. It’s an extraordinary time in your life. Enjoy every moment. Why? For the very reason you mentioned. Authorship brings on a whole set of outrageous insecurities. Enjoy all the firsts.

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    • yvettecarol says:

      Gosh, we do have a lot in common, Joylene! I know what you mean. I’ve just decided this week to do a small print run (and that was the subject for today’s blog post actually). I had a dream of my dear departed sister, Tanya, the night before last. And then during the day, I was prompted to remember that Tans said to me years ago, ‘If you really believe in yourself and your work, you’ll put your money behind it.’ In a nutshell, I have decided to go the indie route however invest some of my money in making it something special and I’m also going to print 150 copies so that I get to hold my own book in my hot little hand! 🙂

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  9. doreenb8 says:

    There is nothing like holding that book in your hand for the first time, congratulations you are almost there. Wait till you see your cover:)
    Marketing, promotion and advertising is an absolute bear, a mean one but if you have a good plan it can actually be fun.
    Good luck with everything…

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